Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Summer; here and gone



And it’s over.  Just like that.

Every year, I tell myself that the summer is going to last forever; that I’m going to take time to spend with all of the people that I love and not worry about getting a job or making money.  And every year, I manage to take multiple jobs and see less of those I love, but more than my budget should allow.  It gets harder and harder because I know how I would like to prioritize, but I also know that common sense often has to overcome the desires of the heart.  So this summer I have faithfully gone to work, saved money, and prayed for the ability to go on weekend trips.  God has blessed me with friends who drive to see me and who are gracious enough to not mention how tedious it is to make the trip; He has also blessed me with parents who let me borrow the car to return the favor (although not as often as my unwise youth would beg), which is a wonderful thing to be thankful for!


This summer has been a smooth drive mixed with a few potholes, and in spite of many tears, I have learned much.  I have learned that “friends” are not real unless they’re there for you when life is tough and you shut down; I have learned that my heart cannot fall, it must be conquered; and finally, I have learned that spending time with Jesus is more precious than a child’s laugh.  The bubbling sound of a child’s laughter is number one on my list of favorite things, and yet somehow Jesus manages to trump that sound.  It should always be that way, but I tend to forget this important thing and allow life to consume me instead.  Thank God for this summer.


They say that summer is the time for romance and I have to agree; I seem to have fallen even more deeply in love with my Savior and all of His creation.  When I see a sunset, I have to stop and stare at the colors and marvel at the incredible sight in front of me; if a family of ducks decides to explore the sand and learn what to eat, I take a picture to remind me of the wonderful way our Lord provides even for the birds.  I’m falling head over heels in love as I notice each little dew drop on a blade of grass as I walk barefoot to pick blueberries.  It’s crazy to most people, I know.  But let me tell you…I have never felt more alive.  Living, breathing, admiring; it’s a dance.  It was once written, “To refuse God recognition is to quit the cosmic dance”; please don’t ever quit this dance.  Look around and enjoy the little things that bring your heart joy!  God delights in bringing us joy and even in the trials, we are able to find our joy in Him and in the things He has created that are all around us.  Stop and look!  “Taste and see that the Lord is good”! (Psalm 34:8a)

Romance is a whirlwind of emotions, a time when you begin to see a glimpse into someone else’s heart and love them because the things you see in their heart are things that capture you and encourage you to grow, to become someone better.  Jesus’ heart is so deep and His love for us is so great that it is unfathomable, but He has opened my eyes even wider this summer and let me see the things that were concealed as I stumbled in the dark.  I live under the shadow of grace, love, and sacrifice; what more could I ask for?  I’m hopelessly caught up in this love that consumes my heart, that makes me whole.  It’s no longer a summer romance; it’s becoming my way of life.

Monday, September 20, 2010

Peace and love...and I'm not talking about hippies!

This has been a crazy week for me!  Ups and downs emotionally seem to bring me closer than ever to my Lord.  I'm not sure where to start, but I guess I'll just wing it!
The power of prayer is amazing.  I had an opportunity to pray over someone this week and it was an experience I don't think I'll ever forget!  We laid hands on him and we were praying out loud and after about four people had prayed, I felt that it was time for me to open my mouth.  But I really didn't know what to say because the people before me had already said what I wanted to say!  But I decided to follow the nudge and open my mouth and I am SO glad that I did.  I started to pray and I could just feel the Holy Spirit flow into me; I've never felt anything like it in my whole life.  It was as though me and my selfish humanness was completely emptied out of my body and the only thing in me was God, pouring through me.  And that is a very lame description of how I felt!  Never before have I reached a place with God like that, never before has He made me shake like a leaf, never before have I felt so empty and yet so full.  His power is breathtaking!!!
My Jesus seemed so close yesterday that I swear I could feel Him standing next to me.  We visited a church and the sermon was about deny ourselves and following Christ.  (The sermon was a lot better than my condensed version here ;P)  It really spoke to my heart and I could feel that there were things in me that I needed to surrender and give completely and wholly to God because He wants EVERYthing and not just most things.  So I got home, cleaned the house, had people over, rode the emotional roller coaster...and didn't take time to sit down and pray.  (Which I now realize was a big mistake!)  After everyone left, I went upstairs to my room, cried, and talked to my Savior.  I just poured it all out and told Him that I surrender everything; everything closest to my heart, everything I haven't wanted Him to change, everything that I've been holding onto for selfish reasons.  And the second I gave everything to Him, He filled me with peace.  He opened my soul and just poured it in like a waterfall!  Oh how refreshing it was; how amazing to feel the peace that surpasses all understanding!
After I'd soaked in the love of my Creator, my dad came upstairs to say goodnight.  He came in and gave me one of those hugs that he gives me when I'm sad, one of the really long ones.  And as I stood there and hugged him, I suddenly realized something that totally blew my mind.  I didn't need his hugs, his love, or even his comfort!  My Jesus had filled me up so much with peace and love and He had taken my sorrows away and I have never felt more loved in all my life!  (Sorry about this next part Dad O.o)  The love my dad had for me right then?  I couldn't even feel it.  I know he loves me and I cherish his love, but at that moment in time, any other love paled in comparison to God's love.  My heart was...in a different world.  That's the only way I can describe it!
Now I have this hunger, this burning desire, to go back to those places and meet God.  All I want is to be enveloped in Him!  I know it's not going to be an easy thing to keep surrendering everything everyday, but my love for my Savior and the love He gives me, makes it all so incredibly worth it.
<3 Mik